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Tahun 2013 tepatnya, saya dan teman-teman yang mengambil paket konsentrasi Bahasa Inggris untuk Anak-anak ( English for Children ) memulai suatu program baru bernama Fun English Club . Program ini ditujukan sebagai wadah belajar Bahasa Inggris yang menyenangkan bagi anak-anak. Saya, yang kala itu dipercaya sebagai sekretaris kemudian diminta untuk menulis surat pembaca yang isinya lebih kurang mempromosikan program yang kami buat ini. Awalnya, saya mengirimkan artikel saya untuk dimuat di kolom Surat Pembaca. Namun, tak dinyana jika artikel saya justru dimasukkan dalam kolom Opini oleh redaksi. Bagi saya, suatu hal yang menyenangkan bisa melihat tulisan saya dimuat di koran. Yang lebih menyenangkan lagi, tulisan di kolom Opini itu berhasil menarik lebih banyak peserta untuk mengikuti program Fun English Club . Bagi sebagian orang, atau mungkin bagi banyak orang, ini merupakan suatu hal yang sepele. Such a p iece of cake . Tapi, bagi saya, ini merupakan cerita yang tak salah untuk ...

Ngapain nulis blog dini hari gini? Random. Niatnya sih jam 11 malem udah tidur, eh mah bablas ampe gak kerasa udh hari senin aja. Biasanya, klo jam segini (jam 00.05 currently) gak bisa and/or belum tidur, njuk randoms things suddenly buzzing on my mind. Ngebayangin mau ngapain aja besok pagi (klo belum tidur pokoknya namanya bukan bsok, meskipun sekarang jga udh ganti hari - err iykwim), ngira-ngira kerjaan bisa kelar kapan biar bisa main, bisa juga udh ngebayangin pingin sarapan apa, ato malah ngebayakin bsok klo udh nikah gimana #eh, baperrrr ~ Oya, tadi ibu sms. (Iya ibu, I have a (step)mom). Cuma say hai sih, what did i expect?? haha Terus mamah juga telp, ktanya ayah deddy lagi sakit, udh empat hari panasnya gak turun-turun. Kata dokter gegara kecapekan, tapi tep aja khawatir kan. Anehnya, mau sekhawatir apapun, aku ra sms blas ki -___- Bukan gak sayang ato apa lho, tapiii bingung arep sms piye, lol :v payah Talking about ayah deddy, I love him so much btw. So so so mu...

Let me take a moment to thank Allah just for everything... I realize that there are times when I complain here and there. I want this, I want that. I dont appreciate enough things that I have. So now, instead of saying sorry for my ungratefulness, I wanna express my gratefulness instead. I know that He loves me so much despite all the things I did wrong, I wanna believe it. I should believe that He is always with me so that He will truly come to me and never leave my side. Thank you for giving me such a wonderful family where I get so much affection and support for everything I do. For letting me being born in this world, because life itself is such a great blessing, isn't it? Thank you for giving me very kind and warm parents, I love them both so much. Though You have taken my mother from my side, it's okay. It's better, I know it's better for us all. Just, I'm so grateful to have my family. Thank you for letting me know that happiness can be true. Just th...

It's been a while ... I have no idea what I'm going to write right now, there're just so many things buzzing on my mind lately. I just, thinking of something this afternoon, I pray to God to make me stronger and tougher to face my life, instead of praying to God to make my problems drifting away easily. Because many things going on my mind lately that sometimes make me blank instead of thinking how solve it.

it's over 1 am right now, can't sleep and do not know why. here i go again, it's been a while ya since i didnt even access this very blog of mine. then, here i am again, over and over again write just anything that comes across my mind right now. i was just wondering whether so far i'm lving my life or just alive. i wanna live my life and i just wanna make myself trust in me, i mean, how do i say it? it's like im trying to convince myself that i'm not simply alive but im living my life. whats the difference? try to figure it out on your own! im bubbling right now i know. lately, these past few weeks, there are a lot happening. and i wanna thank God since i feel that He's being kind as always, im trying to be grateful, well... ahya, i got home last weekend and it was nice as always, got new dress from my mamah, money as well, lol, then eat lotta good food till im scared of gaining some weight, i dont wanna gain more weight please, unless.. what? ...

I read it somewhere on the internet; a home is not a home without a mother. I don't know why, lately I miss her just so much. Surely I miss her and remember her a lot, but it feels different these past few days; it hurts me missing her so badly. I don't know to whom should I tell this, guess my sister won't listen to me anymore if I keep telling her that I miss you, mom ._. Ehe By the way, it's okay. I'm fine. Not totally fine, but I am fine. So then I remember watching a TV show when the guest said something about losing a mother. As what I remembered, she said that there are "first without mom" things that we will have to do as our moms passed away. Then, I rethink about it. Dear my always lovely Mae , I remembered coming home for the first time after you passed away, mom. It felt totally empty. You know, I used to seeing you welcoming me home; then it all felt so much different when I come home now and no one is there welcoming me. At first, I...

Just wanna write something down here since I can't, uhm well, I just dont wanna sleep yet, so . . . Since Idk what I will jot down here, I will just write things randomly. By the way, it's been a while since the last time I write stories on this very blog of mine *zzzz Anyway! I just finished my very first project as an interpreter in PUM. (Just if you wonder what PUM is, kindly check its website here ). So I got the project in Time Excelindo owned by AMIKOM (not sure ._.), it felt like I finally got a real job. Well, its true Ive been working as part-timer since i-dont-remember-when, but this time is kinda different. Dont ask me what makes it different. Engg, so congratulation myself! Is it weird that I actually congratulate my own self? Anyway, as a reward for finishing the work, I will invest some money I got for my online shop. Haha, iki sumpah random banget. Next is the talk about my around-two-weeks-old online shop. I just make it with a friend of mine. Kindly check...

Cong-graduation and Happy Birthday to myself !! All praise to Allah for His blessings and His never ending love. Jadi, alhamdulillah kemarin saya resmi jadi alumni universitas tercintah, aka saya wisuda teman-temaaannnn ~ akhirnyaaa melepas status mahasiswa yang sebenarnya masih pingin saya sandang, bhahahaa Dan, alhamdulillah lagi karena saya ulang tahun hari ini, emang sih jadi tambah tua, tapi semoga sisa umur ini makin berkah, Aamiin ~ Actually I just wanna express my gratitude; I'm grateful for every single thing that I have and that happened in my wonderful life so far, ups and downs, those things have shaped me to be who I am right now. Jackpot graduation dan ulang tahun ini make me realize that I have both such a great family and wonderful friends. Small acts like giving flowers for my graduation, taking pictures together, wishing me a happy birthday, singing me a happy birthday song, having some meal together, even just being there for my happy days are...

Kau lihat langit senja sore ini? Istimewa. Aku melihatnya diatas langit gedung societet. Sayang, tak bisa kuabadikan. Hp sedang di charge tadi di tby. Niatnya, ingin ku foto dan kukirimkan padamu. Tapi tak apa, salam rindumu sudah kusampaikan padanya. Eh, kau merindu senja bukan? atau kau rindu aku? Ah, sudahlah. Jadi, kapan lagi kita habiskan sore bersama untuk mencumbui senja kota Jogja?

Semacam kangen ato kenapa lah ini, galau mungkin? Bahahaaa. Atau mungkin juga dilema karena udah (hampir) lulus tapi belum mau kerja tetap, masih enak nge-freelance gituuu. Jadi, sebenernya ada tawaran kerja kantoran tapi sayanya masih belum pengen tapinya lagi gak berani nolak, entahlah. Liat aja besok. Jadinya lagi, saya randomly check folders on my laptop dan menemukan beberapa foto ini. Kangen, iya, kangen sama masa-masa itu. Bukan kenapa-napa sih, cuma sebagai refleksi biar makin bersyukur karena foto-foto ini membuat saya sadar betapa Tuhan berbaik hati sudah memberi saya kehidupan yang diisi bersama teman-teman tersayang; membuat saya sadar bahwa saya harus bersyukur atas semua ini. Terimakasih semua, terimakasih Tuhan :) One of the most wonderful things I had selama saya di Jogja adalah, kuliah sama temen-temen kece di kelas yg unyu ini. Sekelas cuma dua puluh anak jadi berasa bingit deketnya. aakkk ~ Ini foto pas English Camp bareng temen-temen SALC. Pas lagi mai...

Selamat hari Jum'at! Sebenernya sama kaya hari-hari yang lain sih, sama-sama dua puluh empat jam maksudnya, tapi Idk why I do love Fridays. It might be karena hari Jum'at adalah gerbang menuju weekend. Meskipun sekarang mau Senin apa Jum'at mah buat saya sama aja, sama-sama selo. Maklum, baru jadi pengangguran yang udah gak banyak acara. Jadi, everyday is holiday kalo buat saya mah. Ish, malah ngelantur kan ngomong nya random gini .__. Jadi, mau cerita aja kalo Jum'at kemarin saya yudisium. Udah, itu aja >.< Ahaha, tapi di hari yang sama jugak, temen saya Cyumin maen ke Jogja sama Eci sama Om Hilman jugak. Btw, namanya gak usah disamarin gapapa kan yak?! Niatnya sih mereka nungguin saya kelar yudisium buat bisa maen ke pantai Indrayanti bareng, eh tapi gak jadi soalnya mah udah siang gitu kita nya gak berani pulangnya ntar. Jadilah kita cuma ngobrol, makan, sembari mengembalikan energi setelah berjam-jam di kereta (mereka bertiga sih, aku mah cuma c...

Entahlah, tiba-tiba aja feeling a kind blue out of nowhere. Sepertinya ini efek kopi hitam segelas jumbo yang saya minum tadi *salahpesenmasss* Mungkin karena saya teringat (dosa) masa lalu juga -_- kata-kata nya ngeri banget gak sih. Tapi iya sih, saya bukan orang baik yang tanpa dosa dan berhati mulia, meskipun saya juga bukan orang gak baik yang sukanya ngejahatin dan bikin sakit hati orang. Saya hanya manusia yang sedang mencoba memantaskan diri menerima segala anugerah dan kebahagiaan yang disiapkan Tuhan untuk saya. *eheemm* *benerin jilbab* Kadang, saya merasa Tuhan tidak adil karena memberi saya kekecewaan dan sakit hati yang dalam. Saat Tuhan meminta ibu yang teramat saya sayangi kembali kesisi-Nya, misalnya. Tapi, dilain waktu, saya juga merasa (dan sadar) bahwa Tuhan sangatlah teramat baik pada saya karena masih dan tetap saja memberi saya jalan keluar setiap kali saya mendapat cobaan atau masalah yang (kadang) terasa mencekik. Saat Tuhan memberi saya ibu baru yang...

Howdy good people! Now, I'm gonna share some ways when I deal with appreciating my very own self. These are what I do to show that I love, and respect my very own self. Because, for me, myself is my best friend as well as my worst enemy. I will be the enemy of myself by letting my fears, anxiety and negative thoughts filling up my head. Therefore, I tend to do these things mentioned below to show that I love my own self, that I have rights to respect myself for going through every single step of my life. Don't let other people's (negative) saying defines you I don't think I can explain this so well. But still, I guess you already have the grip of this point. So, most of the times I tell myself that I shouldn't really care about what other people say about me. You have to believe that you're worth it and the moment when you believe in yourself, you will see that other people will treat you with more respect. However, it should be noted that it doesn't ...

I remember when a friend of mine said "I envy you, your life is full of enjoyment, you must be happy." Well, and all I can say was, Alhamdulillah ya  *while putting a smile on my face. =) Jadi, saya punya belief kalo misalnya we surround ourselves with positive people, it will affect our lives in some ways. Menurut teori asal-asalan saya sih, kalo kita berteman dengan orang2 yang pandai bersyukur, selalu (berusaha) punya positive attitude akan apapun, maka pola pikir kita pun akan terpengaruhi. Lagian, gak enak juga kali kalo punya temen yang saban harinya ngeluh babibubebo. I don't say if I never complaint here and there, tentu saya juga kadang sering ngeluh, capek lah, bosen lah, kere lah *eh, namanya juga manusia ('cause I'm only huuummaaannn ~~~ *jreengg) Tapi, sekali lagi, jangan jadiin ngeluh sebagai kebiasaan saat kita dapet masalah *tsah. Bermodal keyakinan itulah, saya bertekad untuk beramal dengan menjadi orang yang selalu (berusaha) untuk ber...

Ini cerita hari Kamis, 1 Januari, the very first day of 2015. Awalnya sih karena bosen dikos mlulu, gak ada kerjaan alias jobless. Revisi juga masih nginep di rumah bu dosen cantik. Jadiiii yaaaa , mencari dan membujuk teman untuk mengisi keseloan bersama adalah hal yang saya lakukan :D Bertekad gak mau mengawali tahun baru dengan tidak bermanfaat, alias gak well-spent, saya dari pagi (jam setengah 9 sih) udah ngebangunin temen via whatsapp buat ngajakin spend the holiday together *tsahh. Dasar kita berdua , saya sama temen saya; sebut saja Cha, emang lagi mentok gak tau mau kemana, dan drpda saya juga cuma bengong glundang glundung geje di kamar kos, saya capcus aja ke rumah temen saya itu yang ada di Kalasan, desa purwomartani lebih tepatnya (if im not mistaken ._.). In brief, kita ended up having random talks and watched K-drama. Alhamdulillah nya, rumah temen saya deket sawah yang lumayan photoable lah. Jadi, abis mumet karena mantengin laptop sekian jam nonstop, temen say...

Dear Dee, today is the very first day of 2015. what a day! you've gone through a lot in 2014. ups and downs. do you remember? there were times when you thought that your life is such a mess. but, don't you forget that there were also many times when you truly felt that your life is such a very blessing. now you know, you've learnt lessons, a lot. so, this year, if you have to face difficult times, just never give up and keep going. you know? shit (sometimes) happens. there will be no rainbow if there's no rain first. hence, no matter what happens, whatever will be, will be. just live your life to the fullest. do your best on everything you do. and don't forget; be grateful and be happy. be better xoxo