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hey hey hey ! its random post season twooo . im just way too excited to tell you the pain i have ._. well, the pain, sorry, not the happiness . but, this is life, ups and downs, and now im gonna tell u guys the most hurtful broken hearted story i have since the day i was born ! exaggerated ? depends, for me , this is the story of my life that hurts me the most ! T.T
wait , i wanna cry right now. just a second and i ll be back .

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alright , im here ! so, the point is that now finally i succeeded in revealing the truth ive been looking for ! yeeiiyy ! it hurts so much like hell, haha . okay ._. so, someone who i miss so much lately, ok, its now about him , again. but i hope this random post is the last post i put him him himmmmmmmm here ! will be no more talk about him later.

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oh damn , in the middle of writing and lost connection ._. it should have been posted few hours ago, well, so now i have to continue after all.
lil forget what im gonna say actually since i cried a lil while ago , and the case im gonna tell you is the thing that made me cry.

the point is that better to know the truth even it hurts me even more and much more. but at least, once i know all those cruel truth, i ll be able to move on without any hesitation left, i do hope so. now, theres no more comforting reason for me to hold on this ridiculous waiting time! i used to search desperately a single reason to hold on and to calm myself and to reassure that i ll be just fine and he ll come back to me. but now ! ! theres no more explanation about it since now i have alreday known the truth. it doesnt really matter how i  know , what matters is that now i know ! and thats enough.

thats enough to be a reason for me to move on , keep living, stay happy and even be more happier. im gonna let this past goes and i , oh god i feel like crying right now, sorry.
i guess i have to stop here. the point is, no reason left for me to hold on, what i have to do is letting go.
i wanna be a better person for me to have a better one later. god, i do believe in you. dont let me down again later. im gonna have a sleep a bit later so im gonna stop this now.
whoever reads this, even though im not even sure theres any, just wish me luck.

stay happy stay living a life stay strong :')

Dee

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