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Hey June ~ (( please )) Don't Make It Bad

For these past few weeks, I've been given time to think over my priorities. Mine has changed.
Ya, my priority now changes as I realize that I shouldn't think too much on one thing which is not going right.
I experience a great pain weeks ago. From that time, I learned a lot.
And yes, at the same time, I cried a river.

But, the thing is, that one thing is not my one and only matter that needs my concerns.
You might get confused as I didn't write it in details, but this is my way of keeping private what is private.

I don't wanna make someone my priority while allowing myself to be an option.


I guess I'm babbling ~

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Talking about priority, lately I'm thinking about what is important in my life now.
I guess I realize that making my family (esp my Dad) happy and proud of having me, are now my top priorities.
And one of the ways to do it is getting into post-graduate program.
Thus, I currently study hard to get accepted. (( Wish me best !! ))

It is a simple mere thing for some people, but it's important for me.

At first, I didn't wanna take the Master degree unless I got scholarship. Yet, I failed to get one now.
Then, I thought it would be best to get a full-time work, earn money, be fully independent, and get married (( the last one, oh I just don't wanna talk about it NOW )).

Allah has His own way to make things work, and I hope my decision is the best for all.

Ahya, what makes me change my mind? It's my beloved Dad's talk.
We went for a city stroll one day when he said to me; asked me, to pursue a Master degree this year.
He said he will help me financially (( since my salary now is just enough for living ))

He said "I want to see you pursuing a Master degree, while I'm still here around you."
(( How could he say that?? ))

I have lost my Mom, and I truly wanna do my best to fulfill my Dad's wish.

(( Hi Dad. I know one of your wishes now :p , you want me to get married soon, right? Hehehee #superbigsmile. Well, I don't think I can fulfill that wish in the near future ( not this year maybe ). I will, of course, someday. (Masih nunggu jodoh yang masih disimpen Allah di masa depan #malahcurhat)
Anyway, thank you Dad for not bringing that matter up when I asked you not to for now. You are the BEST! ))


I will try hard (( and pray harder )).
This (( accepted in the post-grad program )) is my priority now. I should focus on it, right?
May the force be with me!
Bismillah.
:)


p.s. I love you, Dad <3

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