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I Miss You, Mom.

Most of us must be familiar with this saying "we don't know what we got till it's gone." This saying is stated differently by a friend of mine, it goes like this "we don't appreciate what we got until it's gone."
I guess that's pretty much true. Sometimes, we, people, don't appreciate enough what we have until it's gone. Like, forever and we never get it back.

This saying doesn't merely apply to things in our lives, it can be people around us.
(I guess you know where this is going.)

Ya, we don't give enough appreciation to those we love, till one day, they're gone, forever.
And I feel that way now.
Have you ever missed someone so much you cry?
I have,
when I miss my mom.

There are times when I just wanna cry for missing her so much. Even when small bad things happen, I cry and suddenly I miss her just as much.

I feel like I haven't done enough for her as a daughter.
I didn't appreciate her enough for giving me her love and attention.

Now that she's gone, all I can remember is me being mean to her.
All I can remember is me acting annoying to her. All I can remember is things that I didn't do for her.
All I can remember is ...... all the regretful things I did to her.

And now I just can imagine how it feels to be nice to her, imagine all the things I wanna do with her, things I wanna say to her, things I wanna do for her.
I just can imagine that.
I feel like I didn't love her enough while she's around. I regret it that I didn't do many things with her.

Now.
She's up there. All I can do for her is praying for her to be happy there and proud of having me as her daughter.

Mom,
I miss you so much.
I hope you know that I love you so much, and I miss you. As always.
I miss you.

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