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Aku yang tak bisa marah padamu

Aku yang tak bisa marah padamu ,

Ya , aku tahu pasti kalo kamu tahu bahwa aku tak akan pernah bisa marah pada mu . Entah kenapa . Itulah yang kadang membuatku mencaci diriku sendiri . Kepada kamu yang membuatku ingin jungkir balik karena penasaran , membuat ku memendam rasa rindu yang sakit , kepada kamu yang membuatku tak bisa melakukan apa-apa karena ingin tahu kabar mu . Harusnya aku marah . Tapi , sekali lagi , aku tak akan pernah bisa .

Aku yang tak bisa marah padamu ,
Setiap hari jika pikiran tentang mu melintas dibenakku , aku selalu mencoba mencari kesalahan dan kekurangan kamu yang mungkin bisa membuatku benci atau marah kepadamu . Ada beberapa yang aku temukan , tentu saja . Tapi , sepersekian detik setelahnya , segala budi baikmu , tingkah laku mu yang kurindu, mengalir dengan deras menerobos semua hal negatif tentang mu yang susah payah aku kumpulkan . Benci , marah , sebenarnya ada , tapi tetap saja aku merindumu . Sungguh , aku tak bisa sepenuhnya marah padamu .

Tolong , jangan bikin aku marah lagi ya . Meskipun aku memang tak pernah bisa marah padamu . Tapi , tolong jangan kau ulangi semua perbuatan yang membuatku sakit itu . Karena kau tahu , sungguh sakit untuk tidak bisa marah padamu yang seharusnya aku marahi habis habisan .

Aku yang tak bisa marah padamu .

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