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Losing You

How many times do I have to tell myself that everything's going on is the best God set for me ? Well, people tend to think positively esp when they have a problem, then think that what happens is the best for them.
I can't say it's wrong, since it's truly right that God is the best planner ever.
Yet, as a human being, feeling anxious and afraid is such a common thing, right ?
_what.the.hell.am.i.talking.about.actually_



You're not even mine, but I'm afraid of losing you. Why?
Rait na, I'm gonna talk about losing someone. It ever happened once on my 22 years life.
Losing someone we love the most is something that hurts so much, but life must go on, huh?
We have to keep moving on. Once, when my mom passed away, I felt like my life flying away somewhere and didn't wanna come back to me, again.
Yet, as the time goes by, I feel like I can stand it. Though it's hard, of course.
Again, think it this way; it's the best for my mom, so that she didn't need to stand against her illness anymore.
the pain she felt these past few years gone away, she didn't need to take any medicine over and over again.
You know, it hurts me so much when I have to see my mom hurt and had to take the medicine.
It HURTS !





Well, think I have enough for now.
I just, miss my mom so much. Especially when I'm alone and sick (Mom, this damn flu come to visit me again :'( )
Ah, one more,
I do love it when I'm sick then my mom made me soup, delicious one, of course.
It did warm me, she knew that I don't like seeing the doctor or taking medicine, so her cook is the best cure ever !
It doesn't mean I like being sick when I had my mom, it's just , you know, I love it when my mom made me a bowl of soup, that's all.
And now, damn ! I miss it so much !
Love you mom <3

Sincerely,
Your silly little naughty but pretty and friendly daughter <3

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